2010年6月27日
Last blogged @ 14:59

i'm very tired , my heart always paint when i woke up =(  i keep thinking of u , i can't control myself for not thinking of u =(  today , i cry....i keep cry n cry . suddenly my mom open my room dooor , she saw i'm crying , she look at me n scold me : y u wan to cry for him ? he's not worth for ur tear !!! if he worth it , he won't treat u like tis !!!! n stop crying !!! i didn mean don let u couple , juz when i saw him , i can noe he's a ply boy...if ur boyfrenz is a good guy n treat u very good , i let u...so , stop crying for him , he don worth for your tear...
then i say : yes , he don worth for my tear...but , my heart very paint...can u juz let me cry ?
my mom : who ask u so stupid ? i hav told u , if ppl play u DON FORGIVE him...always remember how he ply u b4...don cry anymore , he don worth it...stop crying...when u finish crying go do the housework
when i finish crying , my heart is more better....mummy , i noe , he don worth for my tear but i reali can't control myself...i can't control myself for not thinking of him , i can't control myself for not waiting his message , i can't control my brain !!!! i juz wanna go to die....
everynite , b4 i went to bed , i cry...i cry till i'm tired then i went to bed
everymorning , b4 my mom wake up , i cry...i cry till my heart is nt paint n i hav the dare to go to school....
when i reached school , i juz wish the time can run faster....i don wan stay at there...i juz wanna go home . if nt , i juz wanna change class !!!!
sometimes , when i'm standing beside the road...i juz wan go to the middle of the road n i wish there's a car knock at me...so those sad things i will forget about it....
can u understand my feelings nw ? do u noe ? u hurt me so much !!!!! how i gonna face u ? how i gonna face her ???????????????????????????????? my brain is full of question !!!!!!! my heart is full of paint !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!who can teach me , giving up one person u love is hard , i reali thought i can , but i can't...=(